You haven’t bored me to death at all! You live my story, so I can relate completely. Or perhaps I lived yours. Either way, we share a story…

And you said something I believe is very important.

“I really just want to be my self.”

Deep down, I believe that’s what we all want… simply to be ourselves. The challenge is, because we’ve built up false confidence (to protect ours ‘true’ selves), we aren’t in touch with our “self.”

In fact, most of us don’t even know our true “self” anymore… we mostly identify with the labels that we give ourselves and that others give us.

I wish you the best in your journey to discovering your “true self”… I think you’ll find many of the upcoming lessons to be quite thought-provoking

Redoing your thinking will take persistence and small steps – I talk about this in video 5 which will be a great one for you, I think. Definitely let me know your thoughts in a week or so after you watch that one!

Thank you for sharing – and I look forward to hearing about your new business when it’s up and running!

I liked your story, I know a female artist here in England who is considered over weight called Alison Moyet -Y et she has great musical talent like your self no doubt.
I hear voices of other people’s expectation of me in my head all the time!, but have found a little technique that may help you that helped me… which is to visualize the person who said something negative to you, then breath in the energy that you gave them and breath out the energy that they gave to you. It’s called “recapitulation” – Reference: en.wikipedia.org
Good luck (”Luck is the residue of design”)
Also refer to web site called:”www.Fuckitway.com” This may help you as well…

All the best..

Mr Leighman

I liked your story… I can really relate to that!
People like my self with low self esteem and confidence are always petrified of being made fun of in public. But I just want to say that even if you did a terrible job of it, it does not matter what others think, you made the effort to get up there in the first place and try, which is more than they did. So feel goood about your self for this, I really admire people like your self who try and try even if at first they don’t succeed. All the best

Mr Leighman

Thanks for the Video – I could really relate to that. I find myself often trying to build up false confidence – sometimes with out realizing!
Trying to meet other peoples expectations of me and feeling very hurt if they don’t respond in the way I would like them to. I am totally scared of asking girls on a date because my Love has been rejected in the past I now Lack confidence in my self! I have let those that have been mean to me get to me , I take things to heart, I even feel like crying sometimes which is not the what’s expected for a man!! I feel ugly and undervalued but I must realize that I am o.k really, and often I believe other people being mean to me are just them projecting there own inner fears and expectations on me – they are trying to change me when I really just want o be my self. I am lonely here and want to meet nice people who understand what being your self is and letting others be themselves really means…
Thanks for listening, hope I have not bored you to death!!

Have a nice day

Gerrie Maun

Every month or so on http://www.onearthpractices.com like minded people gather to be guided in awareness and silence that engender well-being and confidence. Check it out.

I find it amazing how our true nature, our true confidence will often shine through in times of need. Not necessarily the times when our minds want it (like in relation to peers, etc), but definitely in relation to the times of necessity.

Thank you for sharing – and while I hope I don’t have to deal with any major emergency situations, hopefully if I do you’ll be nearby!